JULY

Instead of upload it on insta or facebook, i choose to upload at here as i have so much things to say lol

What inspire/s me to write this post? Erm, most probably is because tomorrow is Public Holiday + i just done my assignment * partially + i think of my mother. My mother not going anywhere but sleeping at her bedroom right now. So... what's the point for me to think of her? lol..

DEGREE life is tough *it is an undeniable fact * sob*. I got no time to breath for weeks. Assignments, tests, presentations, tuition classes all come tgt. I'm so lifeless recently i couldn't do anything else besides Eat Work Study Sleep Repeat. I communicate with my laptop almost everyday til i neglect my loves one. My loves one is the one inside the picture i showing. I used to chat with her almost every single day when she is playing facebook. lol. Of coz she didn't complain that i ignore her because of study. Maybe she feels happy that somehow her daughter willing to put effort on study. hahah. 

I feel stressssss. Stress exist everywhere no matter how far i hide. This is my FIRST semester on degree. I still have FIVE semesters to complete my degree. GOSH, I wonder how can i survive until i completed it.fml

I think i'm able to understand the feelings of those students who commit suicide themselves by now. even though such action is soooooooo stupid but they are just trying to escape from reality. I won't do that ( not 100% confirm ah haah ) as i promised my loves one that she can retired after two years. i'll try my best kay, you are the one that worth for me to fight for. Even though she didn't expect much from me as she hari hari complains me that how can i success by being so LAZY? 

back to the main point. Erhem, there's no point at all actually.  I HAVE A GORGEOUS MAMA (okay. she loves purple). She bought me plenty of fruits this few days as she knew i'm rushing assignment this few daysss. I have watermelon, mangoesteen and some other fruits that i dont really know what's that but it taste good lol. Thanks for preparing nutrition meals everyday for the family after whole day tiring work. I do appreciate it so muchhhhhhhhhhhh. 她是我背后的女人= she is my back's woman?! hahahahaa lol  anyway, i cant take things for granted. thanks for making everything easy for me. A phone call to get my location as she knew her daughter dont report/make a phone call when she is not intend to have her dinner at home. just suddenly so emotional , nothing much.

ohyea, i cut my hair without any specific reason. I wanted to cut it since .... ( i forgot since when lol ). I still manage to tie it up to be a short pony tail. iminlovemyhair. ok i should stop and go take a proper rest, kthxbye :DDDD